disillusionedte amo.je t'aime.i.love.you.(or at least, i thought i did)and fuck.do you know what it isto imagine yourself in love with another,to imagine that you are the perfect fit,the perfect match,the perfect everything,only to discover they are notwho you thought they were,that the connection you thought existedwas really never there after all?three whole years.three whole years.wasted.someone remind me(please)why i longed for a boy for so long, when he obviously wasn't longing for me.and oh, christ, the irony.when he finally started longing,i finally stopped.somehow, everything managed to work